Taeyang, ”What did I do on the stage?” [part6]
2009 was an exceptionally tough one for Taeyang (23·real name Dong Young Bae). Managing both Big Bang’s activities in Japan and preparing for his solo album, he got more and more tired both mentally and physically.

“I feel last year was just a blank in my life. It was a nervous time, maybe because it was the third year in my singing career.”
For him, it has often been obligatory to stand on stages. Singing in an uncharged state, he has been exhausted and it has been hard on his mind.

He was the happiest, singing and dancing in front of audiences and he believe that was what brought him the most happiness, but he also felt pathetic towards himself that he couldn’t do his best.

“I thought I didn’t sing sincerely, and felt like ‘What did I do on the stage?’.”

This was during the time he had to prepare for his solo album under pressed schedules. His music didn’t come from the mind to begin with. His mind felt unstable, like he was pressed for something, and there was no particular goal for an outcome.
“After schedules were finished, I had to prepare my solo activities. I was pressed for time and pressed for work, so I couldn’t have the peace of mind I wanted”

At that time, he sang to tunes and beats but there was no emotion. The doors of his heart were shut as well. It was hard for him to meet people and smile.

“I didn’t even want to see people so I just stayed home. Besides, I couldn’t sleep well…”

But the moment he saw the first snow of 2010, he changed his mind.

“It’s too hard to live like this.”







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Taeyang, "Mit csin�ltam a sz�npadon?" [Part6]
2009 volt a rendk�v�l kem�ny egyet Taeyang (23 � val�di neve Dong Young Bae). Kezel�se mind a Big Bang tev�kenys�geit Jap�nban �s k�sz�tett�k az � sz�l�lemez�t, s kapott t�bb �s t�bb f�radt mind szellemileg �s fizikailag.

"�gy �rzem, tavaly volt, csak egy �res az �letem. Volt ideges id�, tal�n mert ez volt a harmadik �vben az �n �nekelni karrier. "
Neki, hogy gyakran k�telez� �llni a szakasz�ban. �nekelt egy kifizetetlen �llapotban, s kimer�lt, �s azt kem�nyen fej�ben.

� volt a legboldogabb, �nekl�s �s t�nc el�tt k�z�ns�g, s hiszem, hogy volt, amit hozott neki a legnagyobb boldogs�got, de azt is �rezte, sz�nalmas szemben mag�t, hogy nem tehetett � a legjobb.

"Azt hittem, �n nem �nekelni �szint�n, �s �gy �reztem, hogy" Mit csin�ltam a sz�npadon? "."

Ez id� alatt kellett k�sz�tenie a saj�t sz�l�album�t alatt pr�selt menetrend. Zen�je nem sz�rmazik a tudat, hogy kezd�dik. Gondolatai �gy �rezte instabil, mint volt nyomva valami, �s nem volt k�l�n c�l az eredm�ny.
"Miut�n menetrend fejez�d�tt be, el kellett k�sz�tenie saj�t �n�ll� tev�kenys�g. �n s�rgeti az id�, �s megnyomta a munka, �gy nem tudtam volna a nyugalmat szerettem volna "

Abban az id�ben, � �nekelt dallamok �s �temek, de nem volt �rzelem. Az ajt�k a sz�ve volt z�rva is. Neh�z volt neki, hogy megfelel� embereket �s mosolyog.

"�n nem is akarom l�tni az emberek �gy maradtam volna otthon. Azonk�v�l, nem tudtam aludni is ... "

De a pillanatban, amikor megl�tta az els� h� 2010, meggondolta mag�t.

"T�l neh�z �gy �lni."