Daesung: "I got so stressed cos I could never say 'no'"


Daesung (22, Real name: Kang Daesung) was hard on himself, thinking that he wasn’t as good as the others when it came to preparation for their debut. But the result of his hard effort and training was the formation of ‘vocal cord nodules’, which announced the possible end of his singing career.

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”When we debuted, we were dubbed the ‘skill-based idol group’ but my voice would break 8 times out of 10 when singing our song ‘La La La’. I couldn’t even look at the others in the eye. I developed sociophobia and even started thinking stuff like ‘It would be better if I was just fired from YG’.”

For nearly a year, he desperately struggled with his voice. He was so nervous about screwing up on a high note on stage and giving the group a bad name when they had just debuted, that it caused him to develop stage fright on top of everything else.

”I was so gloomy that the members couldn’t even tease me lightheartedly. People tell me I was clouded by a dark vibe at the time. Noone could approach me and it was to the point that it was difficult for them to even try to tell me ‘It’s ok’.”

But Daesung got help from his senior Gummy (Real name: Park Ji Yeon) who had also experienced the same pain, and his vocal folds cured miraculously during the 6 months of rest after the release of their first album.

”I learnt a lot doing musicals. My stage fright disappeared after continually performing live on stage too. Since I was in singing academy, I’ve always thought anything is possible as long as you try hard enough.”


Daesung’s naïvet� also caused him a lot of trouble. He’s the type to work hard on his own, keeping his emotions to himself no matter how unpleasant the task so he subconsciously stacked up a lot of stress.

”Even if I don’t want to, I can’t refuse people very well. I don’t like being called bad things, or saying ‘no’ to others. My inner personality is one that gets angered really easily but I must’ve been holding it all in without even realising. I went to an acupuncturist and they said I have anger disease. [omg its not even funny how effing STUPID that sounds in english] (laughs) The doctor there asked me why a young person like myself was so stressed out. I was surprised too.”

When he thinks back to his childhood, he wasn’t always smiling. He says it even feels like he had to put on a ‘smiling mask’ in front of cameras and the public since his debut in the entertainment industry.

The time after his debut that he spent waiting to be on broadcasts was irritating and exasperating for Daesung. And though these feelings slowly faded away after trying to comfort himself and repeatedly telling himself to ‘think on the bright side’, his emotions must have stacked up deep down within him without him even realising.

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Daesung: "�n annyira hangs�lyozta, mert �n soha nem mondom, hogy" nem ""


Daesung (22, Real name: Kang Daesung) neh�z volt mag�ra, �s arra gondolt, hogy nem volt olyan j�, mint a t�bbiek, amikor j�tt a deb�t�l� felk�sz�l�sben. De az az � kem�ny munka �s k�pz�s kialakul�s�t "hangsz�l g�r�ngy", amely bejelentette, hogy a lehet� v�g�n � �nekel karrierj�t.

Tov�bb a v�g�s.


"Amikor deb�t�lt, voltunk nevezte a" skill-alap� b�lv�nyt csoport ", de a hangom szakadna 8-szor a 10-b�l, amikor �nekelni mi dalunk" La La La ". Sem tudtam n�zni a t�bbiek a szemembe. Sociophobia dolgoztam, �s m�g arra kezdtem gondolni dolgokat, mint a "Jobb lenne, ha �n csak kir�gt�k YG '."

Majdnem egy �vig, s k�ts�gbeesetten k�zd�tt a hangj�t. Annyira ideges csavarja ki a magas hang a sz�npadon, �s �gy a csoport egy rossz n�v, amikor �pp deb�t�lt, hogy az okozott neki, hogy dolgozzon l�mpal�z fel�l minden m�st.

"Annyira szomor�, hogy a tagok m�g csak nem is k�tekedik velem lightheartedly. Az emberek mondd meg voltam elhom�lyos�totta a s�t�t hangulattal b�r abban az id�ben. Senki sem tudta a megk�zel�t�s nekem, �s azt a pontot, hogy neh�z volt sz�mukra, hogy m�g megpr�b�lja elmondani "It's ok". "

De Daesung kapott seg�ts�get az � id�sebb Gummy (val�di neve: Park Ji Yeon), aki szint�n tapasztalt ugyanaz a f�jdalom, �s a vok�lis bedobja csod�val hat�ros m�don gy�gyult 6 h�napban a pihen�id� kiad�sa ut�n az els� album.

"�n tanultam sokat tesz musicaleket. Saj�t l�mpal�z elt�ntek ut�n folyamatosan performing a sz�npadon is. Mivel �n az akad�mia �nekelni, mindig �gy gondoltam, b�rmi lehets�ges, am�g meg el�g neh�z. "


Daesung a naivit�s is okozott neki sok bajt. � az a t�pus kem�nyen dolgozni, hogy saj�t, megtartva az �rzelmeit, hogy maga nem sz�m�t, milyen kellemetlen a feladatot, �gy tudat alatt halmozott fel egy csom� stressz.

"M�g ha �n nem akarok, azt nem tagadhatja meg az emberek nagyon j�l. �n nem szeretem, ha �gynevezett rossz dolgokr�l, mondv�n "nem" a t�bbieknek. Saj�t bels� szem�lyis�g az, amely igaz�n d�h�s lesz k�nny�, de �n biztos tartottam az eg�szet an�lk�l, hogy megval�s�t�s�hoz. �n elmentem egy akupunkt�r, �s mondta, d�h betegs�g. [omg, hogy m�g csak nem is vicces, hogy kellemetlen, hogy H�LYE hangzik angolul] (nevet) Az orvos is megk�rdezte, hogy mi�rt a fiatalok, mint �n annyira hangs�lyozta ki. Meglepett is. "

Amikor azt hiszi, hogy vissza a gyerekkori, nem volt mindig mosolygott. Azt mondja, m�g akkor is �gy �rzi, mintha el kellett halasztania a "mosolyg� maszk" el�tt, kamer�k �s a nyilv�noss�g sz�m�ra, mivel deb�t�lt a sz�rakoztat� iparban.

Az id� ut�n deb�t�lt, hogy � k�lt�tt arra v�r, hogy az ad�sok bosszant� �s elkeser�t� volt a Daesung. �s b�r ezek az �rz�sek lassan elhalv�nyult ut�n pr�b�l vigasztalni mag�t, �s t�bbsz�r azt mondta mag�nak, hogy "Szerintem a j� oldal�t" az �rzelmeit kell halmozott fel m�lyen benne n�lk�le is megval�s�tani.